Wave

I always been self motivated. When I want something I go out and do it. I see the big picture and know what I have to do. This attitude is the reason why I am self motivated. A classic example of me being self motivated was for my bachelor's degree from Warner University. All the classes were on-line. On-line classes require more work than regular classes. For one more reading and you have to stay on top of everything! I knew that completing my degree would result in getting my degree and getting more money from work/higher job status. So I saw the big picture and went after it. I hit the ground running and completed my degree in two years with a GPA of 3.8. When I applied for the degree they questioned me because I was too young. They knew that 20 somethings were as motivated as 30 somethings. Well I proved them wrong. After completing my degree I was tired from the hard work and took the year off. This fall I started my Masters degree on-line which should take me the same amount of time to finish my bachelors. Only one problem with that thought, my lack of self motivation. I describe my motivation for school like a wave. At times I feel really motivated, but others I have none at all and want to stop. Just like a wave has a crest, then falls off. So I guess the lack of motivation would be due to the lack of big picture I see. Would I get more money or change of status at work, No. Would I get a masters degree, Yes. Would I waste time and money getting it, Yes. So why do it then? I guess the only thing motivating me is just the thought of having a paper say Liberty Theological Seminary has conferred on Michael Wilder the degree of Masters of Discipleship Ministries. Sounds good, but so what!